Simultaneously, we are making space for the baby in our lives and hearts.
Practically speaking, we moved into a larger apartment. It’s nice. We see the mostly trees – magnolia and pine – from the windows.
Our sports toys currently take up most of what will be the baby’s room. We will, in time, find room for both.
We are also making space in our hearts for the little one. As giddy and grateful as we are, it’s an evolving process. Right now, the weight of becoming a parent sits mightily.
The Lord has entrusted us with a life! What a responsibility. I remind myself that I am the steward of this gift, and will not determine the little one’s journey. I’m still toeing that line; it is tempting to believe Jake and I are in control.
Truthfully, we will determine a lot of outside inputs to the child’s development. From what they will be allowed to listen to and watch, to what activities they partake in, to the church we attend, to how we structure our family (will both of us work full time?), to a majority of what they eat, to what school they will go to, and the list goes on. We will play a significant role in shaping their heart – the wellspring of life – but we cannot control it. The Lord is sovereign over that.
Taking even a slight step back, I am so thankful for this. I trust the God of the universe, who loved us enough to come and die for you and me – and who has limitless power to save and is wholly good – infinitely more than myself.
And so the process of surrendering this child has already begun. Really, it’s an ongoing odyssey of not only making space in our lives and hearts for the child, but also more space and responding to a deeper invitation for the Lord to work. What an irresistible invitation indeed.
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